This is pretty serious and you are in great danger of turning into an
apostate and leaving the fold of Islam!

No Muslim can reach such a stage unless he has brought it upon himself
or herself through the material they watch or the people they talk to!

If you are still interested in remaining Muslim, you surely have to
drastically change your lifestyle and those who you hangout with!

Your must force yourself to read the Quran and the tafseer, learn the
biography and seerah of our Prophet salla allahu alaihi wa sallam and go through different Islamic lectures to soften your heart. Your must surround yourself with righteous practicing Muslims 24/7 and pray to
Allah to protect your heart from Satan and his whispers.

I used to be enthusiastic about being a muslim but now I get strange thoughts like why should I follow Islam and how do I know it’s the right path. Also I think about why does Allah punish us if He has given us freewill. When I open the Quran for reading, I don’t know I feel strange and I close it. I am afraid, I feel blank in Salah. What should I do?

Apostasy | January 26, 2016 3:27 am
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