The knowledge destroys these doubts that are inflicted by Sheitan. Study hard your deen and be a practicing muslim, be a strong muslim. Ummah needs men like, Khalid Ibn Waleed, Omar ibn AL khatab, Abu Bakr etc. Learn about their way of approaching this life. Don’t be weak! Study the seerah of our Prophet salla Allahu alaihi wa sallam.
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