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Such feelings are from Shaytan who is trying to derail you. You must fight and ignore them and increase yourself in obedience to Allah in order to fight back. You must not despair from Allah’s mercy and must trust that Allah will forgive your previous sins as long as you are remorseful. 

I am a 20 year old man and in the past months I have turned back to Allah and I really desire to be one of his beloved servants, I have began to practice, though I have committed some disgusting sins and looked at disgusting things in the past, so I feel as if I can not be a true beloved servant of Allah again, how can I overcome this ?

Sins | August 20, 2019 5:33 am
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What can you say about trends issue in our muslims community here,there is page in facebook which you can share all your problem and you can hide your identity but most of the issues are about zinaa, i mean its all about zina were everyone can read and gives advices but i think it is so toxic bc it expose so much fornication.
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Ibn Majah hadith 4245 It was narrated from Thawban that the Prophet ﷺ said: “I certainly know people of my nation who will come on the Day of Resurrection with good deeds like the mountains of Tihamah, but Allah will make them like scattered dust.” Is this hadith referring to masturbation or something else?