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I wonder, when I sometimes missed a prayer or I have sinned, I feel so depressed and when I pray I shiver whenever I recite or hear about Hellfire or good news about Jannah.Its like going from my spine down to my feet.does this mean I attained taqwa, because before I use to watch porn, but not now, now i just shake it off because I am ashamed of Allah seeing me in this state, and I don’t want to please shaytaan, I love praying but I wonder am I sinful for leaving the Sunnah temporarily until I become stronger and performing the Sunnah to, just so I adapt my body to enjoy more, I use to do those, 2 rakaa’at before fajr, also pray qiyaam’ul layl, before I get too tired and I can not focus but when I only pray the Fardh I enjoy more, and I still have khushoo and whenever I pray qiyaam’ul layl then my day become so much better, no one should ever abandon this prayer because it contains so many virtues. That was my question.