ANSWER:

The question is not complete! However, how do you want me not to judge you and from what I have read, you are married but you are cheating on your husband?

No Muslim woman would do that no matter what the reasons are! 

Either be faithful or ask him for divorce. 

Have some shame in you and at least honor your parents and their name if this still has any value or meaning in your heart! 

QUESTION: First, please do not judge me. I am very ashamed of my self. I desperately need help/advice. When I was 18 years old, I got into a haram relationship with a boy. We were not allowed to get married due to cultural differences. 4 years later, I married someone else and the boy also got married However, throughout our marriages we always kept in touch and occasionally met

Fiqh of Marriage, Pre-Marital Relations, Sins |