ANSWER:
What you have done nullifies Islam! You must revert to Islam from such shirk and repent to Allah while showing sincere remorse and pledging not to do it again. It is prohibited to befriend with the opposite gender or to be this cheap by throwing yourself at the feet of someone who resents you and doesn’t want you as a spouse but wouldn’t mind taking you are a mistress in fornication and leaving you whenever he is through with you! You must preserve your honor and dignity!