ANSWER:

What you have been through was a haram relationship that angered Allah and your istikhara was invalid due to that. 

This person is playing with you and using you. 

Repent to Allah, show sincere remorse and cut all commutations between you and him and accept any good proposal that Allah sends your way after checking him as this is what would please Allah 

QUESTION: I met someone, prayed for guidance, we grew closer. I did Istikhara when things got tough and things improved. I felt Allah wanted us together. We planned to involve parents for nikkah, but after a small argument we stopped talking for months. Now, family pressures me to marry I feel torn I fear misreading Istikhara signs due to bipolar or wonder just if consistent duas might bring him to me

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