Dresscode when praying & prayer valid if you found a hole in the clothes? – Sheikh Assimalhakeem

Since my childhood i used to think that Islam doesnt honor women because of my fathers and his family’s behavior but later on this got cleared and this misunderstanding went soon after that i started getting waswas and i still get them this has affected my prayers and i didnt pray many of them.Was i never a muslim? Do i have to take a bath to become a believer and start praying?