One feels scared of going to masjidul-haraam or saudi due to crane crash how do one remove ones fear….also hajj reminds me of death and i feel scared optimistic hopeful happy and repent fall and a new me (meaning fresh start)
What you feel is very strange! How many times did you hear of deaths in Makkah before! On the other hand, how many die out of car accidents or after undergoing an operation,yet I don’t see you refraining from riding cars or visiting the doctors!
To die in that state is a blessing! However we don’t wish for death but we ask Allah to give us a good end.
You shouldn’t be scared! If it is written for you to die, you will die in any place no matter what!