ANSWER:
It’s not what you feel that counts, it’s what the Prophet salla Allahu alaihi wa sallam taught us that matters.
Numbers don’t mean anything, in fact Allah has said so many times in the Qur’an that most of the people do not understand, most of the people are astray etc. These doubts you are suffering from mean that your Aqeedah is not perfect nor correct as you are inclined to listen to them and like them more than following the sunnah of the Prophet salla Allahu alaihi wa sallam. You are in great trouble my friend and you must leave these deviants before becoming one of them!