I sometimes imagine myself being beaten or such and gain some sort of sexual pleasure from that feeling …?? My question is is it permissible for me to let my mind imagine these and allow me to feel this feeling or shud i try to avoid it…
Such feelings are not normal and allowing yourself to think about it is not
normal either. This is Satan playing with your mind and may be preparing you to allow others to rape you as you contemplate upon it and enjoy it in your imagination!
These are dangerous grounds and take you away from loving Allah and Iman!